Symbol Watcher

I think I’m beginning to better understand the menstrual blood dream I wrote about on January 4. I felt the dream was trying to show me that I (as represented by my female co-workers in the dream) am using or disposing of the creative life within me (the menstrual blood) in the wrong way, in the wrong place (on the floor rather than in the trash).

In the dream — even though I never see my co-workers and they don’t tell me directly — I understand they have bloodied the office bathroom because they’re dissatisfied with where they’re working and angry because they don’t believe they’re being treated well. 

I know their emotions are a depiction of my emotions — specifically, how I feel about the lack of support and faith I’ve received from my family over the last several years. My family is suspect of my choice not to seek a full-time permanent job that doesn’t involve writing. They are unsupportive of the man I choose to live with because he’s of mixed ethnicity. They are even suspect of how I spend my money and how I treat other people — including my pre-school aged nieces.  I have told them if they have questions about me or my life, all they have to do is ask. I have been upfront with them about what I’m doing and what I’m trying to accomplish. But they see me as an outsider now, no longer like them. My family would rather make comments under their breath and slither innuendo out of their mouths. 

So, yes, I don’t like where I’ve been working emotionally and I’m angry about the way I’ve been treated. My family relationships have grown increasingly toxic in the last few years — to the point where I’ve allowed their negativity to settle in me and develop into my own anger and resentment. These negative emotions have caused me to misuse, or waste, my creative energy.  I’ve spent all my time trying to understand why I am now an outsider, why I no longer have their faith and support.  I understand the dream is telling me it’s ridiculous to waste my creative life obsessively trying to understand my family’s behavior toward me.  It’s time I used my creative energy to bring new life into my life.

– Writeye

Posted on January 18th, 2009 under Dreams, Jungian Psychology • Tags: menstrual blood symbolism. •  Print This Post •  Email This Post • RSS 2.0 feed • Leave a response, or trackback