Earlier this week, I had the following dream:
I am outside, looking down at a woman who is kneeling on the ground. A young man, a murderer, takes a chain saw and chops off her head. I see the bloody stump and can’t believe he actually did it. Two women are now with me and I know the murderer is after me, to kill me.
I am now in that same area outside, but I’m sitting down with my left leg up in the air. The man puts an old metal box up to my left leg, just below my knee. I understand the box is still the chainsaw. Somehow, I fight him off and start running before he has a chance to cut off my leg.
Now I and the two women are running through the neighborhood, trying to get away from the murder. It is the type of lower middle class neighborhood I grew up in, with small white houses built close together and yards separated by chain link fences.
I see the murderer clearly now. He is young and blond — a “grunge” type. He’s wearing a beige-colored knit beret and plaid shirt. Two other young men are with him now. Suddenly, a couple big black Labrador dogs in the neighborhood start barking and jumping up to block the men from getting to us. I am hopeful for a moment because I think the dogs will create a diversion long enough for us to get away.
But then the dogs see us running and they get distracted watching us. They stop barking at the men. I tell the dogs, “No, stop looking at us and keep barking at the men so we can get away.” But it’s too late. I know the men are after us again. I wonder if I can get the three of us away from them. I think I might be able to.
I see a clunky old rusty blue car that is like the cars from my childhood in the late ’60s. I would need to run back in the direction of the men to get to the car. I know the car runs, but it isn’t very reliable. For some reason though, taking the car isn’t what I decide to do. I decide to make a run for it, on foot, away from the murderer and the other two men. I’m not sure we’re going to get away from them.
The symbol of the car is especially intriguing to me since the dream offers it as a possible solution or way out of my predicament — but it’s one I choose not to take.
When I look at the symbolism of a car from a Jungian interpretive standpoint, I know that my dream car, like a real car, is all about getting me from one place to the next — either in my psychological life, my outter life, or both. The car could represent the libido, or psychic energy, I need to move from one level of development to the next (away from my distructive animus, represented by the murderering young man). The car could also represent the method I could use to move my outter life in a different direction.
I know one thing immediately: whatever it is that gets me moving away from murderous Mr. Grunge, it is going to be my choice. It’ll be either a car that I am in control of and navigate, or it’ll be my own two feet. The decision is completely mine. I won’t be able to count on any outside assistance (as would be symbolized by a bus, or taxi where I might share a ride while someone else does the driving, for instance).
The kind of car in my dream helps explain to me why I chose against it. It is old and unreliable, past it’s prime. And, because I associate it with the time of my childhood, it represents a way of getting around in the world that I learned in my childhood, from my parents and my working class upbringing. I know that lesson from my childhood well: I should just take a job for the steady paycheck and the benefits and be thankful for it. Having a regular job is enough in life and all anyone should really be concerned with.
But it is an unsatisfying, lazy way to live, and I know it.
The symbolism comments so beautifully on the struggle I’ve been having for the past several years — how can I stop working dead end, boring clerical jobs and make a fulfilling life and living writing about things I believe are important, like symbolism as it relates to our psychological development.
How do I get there?
Interestingly, in the dream, I would have to turn around and run back to get to the car. I think this means the choice of the car would be a regression to outdated values from my childhood. Also, I would be running toward Mr. Grunge. And while he represents my attempt to move away from my collective working class values, he also represents my lack of firm commitment, my aimlessness and laziness when it comes to REALLY doing what I know needs to be done to move my life in a different direction. (My apologies to any current or former Grungers reading this, but my associations are what they are.)
In the dream, I don’t know exactly why I make the choice to go on foot. Afterall, going on foot means I don’t even have the aid of a motorized vehicle. A car, even an unreliable one, would at least give me some assistance other than my own two feet and may even put some distance between me and my murderer before it breaks down. But my dream wisdom tells me I need to make the harder, riskier choice of going on foot. I am going to have to use my own willpower. What if I’m not fast enough? What if Mr. Grunge catches up with me and saws off my head or my legs? Still, there only seems to be one right way for me. I don’t want to run in the direction of own destructive animus and I know I can’t go back to the car, to my old working class way of getting around.
– Writeye
November 1st, 2008 | Tags: car symbolism in dreams | Category: Dreams, Jungian Psychology |
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